I kind of researched my last post more in-depth today. I've felt truly grieved over the reality of an eternal place of damnation for those who do not accept Christ, but this website put it in a light I have never thought of before.
Click Here for the site if you're interested. I'm in a weird phase in my life at the moment as I am living with a few thousand young adults hailing from all sorts of backgrounds and lifestyles. The more I am allowing myself to look past the sin and love, the more I am exposed to their "ways"...I think they see my changes as me being open to experimenting, but I'm not. It's tempting sometimes to partake in their fun just because living the way I have been is l.o.n.e.l.y and I have so many memories from my past...it's probably not the best thing to allow myself to reminisce about, but I do sometimes.
I think I'm craving some sort of adventure...I just don't know where to find it. I also hateeee when I hear the same reactions people have about me: "you don't drink/smoke? you don't party? you won't hook up?....what do you do?" And I know none of those things would satisfy me short term or long term, but I am certain my life now is vanilla and only getting more bland by the second. These are supposed to be the most exciting and memorable years of my life (so I hear...) and so far, I cannot tell you one stand out moment or activity I have participated in. Clubs are not exciting, parties are not fun, and sitting home all night is utterly unbearable.
Please pray for me, I'll be keeping you all in my prayers
for a hopefully blessed and spiritually fulfilling week :)